And the winner is...Reality!!

Scene 1:

Kusano-san showed up in his friend’s place. He brought along his wife and his little kid, Akira. His family wanted him to take over the family business. Kusano-san refused. He wanted to live his own life, to live his own dream. So he ran way from home and stayed at his friend’s place.

Days gone by. Kusano-san still didn’t manage to find a job, while he had to earn a living for his wife and kid. Unwillingly, he returned home to take over the family business.

“I’ve beaten off by money...”

Scene 2:

Kusano Akira and Kiritani Shuuji went to school by bike. On their way, they met a bunch of working people. Akira gave a halt, made Shuuji looking at him questioningly.

“Ne Shuuji, someday, are we gonna be like them? Like these boring adults?”

Shuuji stared at those people, at the tired expression on their faces, as if their routinity had drained up all the energy. As both of them continued their way to school, Shuuji couldn’t help wondering, “Am I gonna be like them, someday?”

Those scenes are taken from my favorite Japanese dorama, Nobuta wo Produce. Starred by Kamenashi Kazuya and Yamashita Tomohisa. For me, though the dorama is a comedy about highschool students and their lives, it’s so inspiring.

Seeing those scenes above, I feel like staring at myself. The idealism I once had, day by day had run dry, beaten off by reality. I feel now I’m working for money, not for the sake of working itself. And now I feel like I’m getting closer of being the boring adult I was once afraid of.

Am I?

I hope not.

Yesterday dusk sky was so pretty. An orange tinged the darkened sky. Merried by the clouds.

CLOUDY DAY = GOOD DAY

Udah beberapa hari ini Jakarta (dan beberapa kota lainnya) mendung mulu. Walopun udaranya bikin pingin narik selimut & meringkuk lagi, gw sih seneng2 aja. Terus terang, gw agak anti matahari. Bukan, gw bukan vampir. Dan bukan, gw juga bukan tikus tanah. Gw cuma ngerasa, kadang panasnya matahari bisa ngancurin mood gw.

More or less, hal itu terbukti. Seiring dengan makin mendungnya langit, mood gw makin membaik. Ga ada lagi omelan untuk hal2 sepele di pagi hari. Pas nyampe kantor, gw nyalain notebook & duduk manis, kerja dengan tenang. Iya kan? Tidakkah kalian sadari hal itu, wahai orang2 yang sering jadi korban omelan gw?

Satu hal yang bisa disimpulkan, bagi gw, a cloudy day means a good day.

Cuma satu hal yang jadi keluhan gw. Gw ga gitu suka buka payung. Gw akan pake payung kalo udh terpaksa aja. Kalo ujan udh bener2 deres tanpa bisa ditolerir lagi, barulah gw akan buka payung. Alhasil, klo gerimis nanggung gitu, gw akan menerjangnya tanpa takut. Setelah itu? Pusing. Secara yah, keujanan nanggung gitu. Haha...

Rupanya si pacar mulai kuatir. Payung mah dibawa, tapi jarang dibuka. “Ntar sakit loh!” katanya suatu waktu. Gw cuma ketawa. Gw ini jarang sakit. Bukannya takabur, tapi emang bener gw ga gampang sakit.

Ga mempan, si pacar pun ganti haluan. “Ntar rambutnya basah loh. Jelek kan?”

Hum... For the first time, I started to consider it. Gw emang bukan cewe dengan rambut seindah iklan shampo. Hairdo gw juga ga keren2 amat. Bad hair day malah udah jadi bagian dari keseharian gw. Dan dalam rangka not to make it worse, mao ga mao gw setuju juga ama wanti2 si pacar.

Jadinya gw mulai rajin melindungi kepala. Ga mesti dengan payung. Sweater, jaket ato apapun yang di tangan gw. Suatu waktu ujan gerimis pas gw keluar kantor. Refleks, gw ngelindungin kepala dengan barang yang ada di tangan gw...which is my notebook’s softcase, but with my notebook in it! Untung gw cepet insap. Mending gw yang keujanan daripada notebook tercinta gw ini ^^;;

nu year

Tahun baru, berarti tahun yang baru… (great, what a start!)

Malem tahun baru 2008 ini masih gw lewatin dengan anggota sekte yang sama, Wirda & Jepun, ga ada penambahan, ga ada pengurangan. Cuma lokasinya aja yang beda. Kalo dulu qta nyasar ke La Piazza, skarang qta harus cukup puas dengan di rumah Wirda. Dua loyang pizza, sebotol Coca Cola, sekotak es krim, film di tipi yang layak tonton, ditambah juga ujan gerimis yang ga mao berenti, cukup bikin qta ga kluar rumah. Menjelang tengah malem, qta ngabisin 5 kotak kembang api, heboh b’3an di halaman. Lumayan norak juga ^^

Ga ada yang banyak berubah dari tahun ke tahun. Perasaan sih gw masih gini2 aja. Masih hobi tidur2an di depan tipi, dengan camilan, hape, & komik yang berserakan sejauh jangkauan tangan, nonton dvd dorama atau konser L’Arc en Ciel & Dir en grey. Hobi duduk dengan kaki diangkat. Hobi cekikikan ga jelas. Ga behave deh.

Tapi ada satu yang jelas berubah. Now I have him. That surely change many things. Now I’m sharing my everything with him, my life, my heart, my feeling, my happiness, my sadness, my anger.

Yeawell, let’s be positive! Let’s face the upcoming bright days of 2008! Yosh, ganbarimashou!!

After all, we’re only just begun… right, hun? *winked*